Classes 94 (+6 advanced)
Took a trip cross country to Bristol today. This island is so darn small. Coast to coast train 1h 40m. Another part if my visit every studio project. I most say the studio in Bristol is lovely. Small but cozy. It was also a rather small class today which was nice. Made it feel more like I belonged there, like it was more personal.
I managed a semi strong practice. Except for locus & full locus where I completely lost it. I really had no clue what to expect today. It made it obvious how much I rely on those expectations during most classes. Have to work harder on dropping them. It’s just so easy to start thinking about class hours in advance and whether you want to or not you start expecting things.
The most boring and annoying trip I’ve ever made was to the Taj Mahal. You know why? I had built up such high expectations of the place all through my life. There was just no way it was going to live up to them.
One thing that’s been on my mind all day has been peoples ability to push things until tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong I’m the worst kind of procrastinator. But recently it’s become so obvious that things won’t happen unless you take charge of them. Fine it might not happen the way you expected (there is that horrible word again), but something will change. If you just take that first step. Doing a class of Bikram is not that hard, doing 101 classes in 101 days neither. Nor is doing 5 in a day.
As long as you make up your mind to do it, the rest is easy. Getting your dream job is easy (well maybe harder in the current climate but you know what I mean). You’ve just got to make up your mind of what it is and start taking steps towards it. Maybe it will change shape on your way there but you’ll wind up in the right place if you just make up your mind. Actually scrap that maybe it will change, hopefully it will change. Because hopefully you’ll get a better understanding of what you want as you travel down the road towards it. Dropping the expectations as you go, rather than building up new once.
What I’m trying to say is you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You’ve just got to let go of your expectations of how you will get there, and what it will look like when you get there. Start looking at things slightly wider and you’ll notice that a lot of things you hope will happen already has. It’s time to start living your life. That has been my lesson from yesterday.